Failed

failed /fāld/
adjective

1.(of an undertaking or a relationship) not achieving its end or not lasting; unsuccessful.
2.(of a mechanism) not functioning properly; broken-down.

I have failed…At what you might ask? Well, everything.

But I have learned in my failure and see that in that failure I can make myself (and others) better.

I constantly say I am going to be better about posting/writing and then I don’t. I let other things get in the way and I really wish I didn’t because I feel better when I write, I feel better when I express.

I want to take time to read other’s writings, as I have discovered many great people and writers over the last few months; and enjoy reading what they have to say. But, again, I let other things get in the way.

It frustrates me that I am not better about keeping up with the house, and the laundry. But there are days I finish work and I am just done with everything for the day.

I should plan meals, and cook healthier, and not go the easy route with food; but I don’t because well…it is the easy route. That does no good for me or my family.

I should be a better friend and family member and reach out to people more. Contact them, remind them that I care and love them. But I don’t, and I don’t know why.

There are tons of other things I could list here that I should be doing, I could be doing, I would be doing but there are times I just don’t.

So, as you see, I have failed, at everything. And in failing I have learned that I am human, and I cannot do everything despite wanting to and trying to at times. That I need to give myself a small break now and then. That I need to realize there are times it is just plain laziness (because it is) and there are times that what I gave for the day was all I had to give. And both of those are okay.

The important thing is I keep getting back up every day and giving what I have for that day. Today might be 20%, tomorrow might be 120%; but I am always going to give all I have to give.