Excuses

Well, well…look at that I have already fallen behind on my promise. But who did I promise you, or myself? See, I told you I am not good at this. So I got day 1, 2 and 3 out and then slipped on the rest. So, when I am home tonight I will be posting to catch myself up to today, May 7, and then will try to stay on top of it from there. I honestly want to be better about blogging and writing I just need to make myself find the time to do so. I can use all the excuses, too: work, kids, home, life; but to be honest that is all they are is excuses and there is no reason for them. How does the saying go, excuses are like assholes and everybody’s got one….or wait maybe that opinions but it seems to work both ways.

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LATE: Day 4 – Childhood Favorite(s): 

I was born January of 1980. And although I don’t remember much about the first few years of my life; I do remember my toys and the cartoons. The toys and cartoons of my childhood were pretty spectacular and awesome. I often wish you could get the toys we use to have for our kids now. Sure there are some of the same like My Little Pony, Strawberry Shortcake and Transformers (to name a few), they don’t have the magic like the ones from our childhood did. Some of my many favorites included: Popples     My Little Pony     Carebears     Muppet Babies     GI Joe TMNT     Original NES     Girl Talk: Date Line     Caboodles     Polly Pocket     Doug      Fraggle Rock    Rainbow Bright     Strawberry Shortcake     Alf     Thunder Cats     Jem & The Holograms     She-Ra     He-Man

Day 3 – A Failure

This one is kind of hard to write. Not because I don’t have any failures because, I do. Because no one ever wants to admit a failure. Especially in a public format.

As I stated, I have had plenty of failure in my life. Is there one particular that stands out above another, not necessarily. I can think of many that were perhaps worse than another but none that stand out really.

Probably what I would consider a failure that I would change, and that I could change is not finishing college. Now, I need to make it clear that the reason I haven’t finished isn’t because I have failed college. I actually did quite well when I was going. But life has happened. Both times I have tried to return I have had to stop because I have become pregnant during my studies. After I had Alex in 2002, I went back to continue my courses and became pregnant with Sammi who was born in 2006. I just never went back after I had Sammi.

Now don’t get me wrong for one single second. I adore my children, and to me they are a much better achievement than a college degree. However; for my mom who would like me to have one, for my dad who I know wanted me to have one and most of all for myself I would like to have that degree.

Sometimes I wonder if it is worth it now that I am 35, then I hear of 90 year olds going back to school to get their degrees, and I think, “hell yeah it is!” It is just an achievement I would like to have regardless of when I achieve it.

Day 2 – Where You’d Like To Be In 10 Years

Where would you like to be in ten years? I use to answer this question so generically. The way I thought the person asking the question wanted it answered. So if it was interviewing for a job, I would say something like, “still working for XYZ company…blah, blah, blah.”

Sometime in 2011, I started answering it by saying I couldn’t answer it because if life had taught me anything at all it was that you could not say where you would be or what you would be doing. I was very sure of that. At that point, I had moved three times already (from Houston to LA from to Florida) and had done so in about a 5 year period. I really didn’t know where I would be moving every two to two and half years. I wasn’t sure if I’d be anywhere in a year let alone ten years. That did not always go well with people, especially if I was trying to obtain a job with them.

Now that I look at this question a little more, I think it is the meaning of the question that you are supposed to answer and not the question itself. Not the I’d like to be living here and doing this as much as where you see yourself in that time.

So, where I’d like to be in ten years and where I may be in ten years is probably going to be quite different. But that is okay, as that is what life is about.

Where I’d like to be in ten years is content. Just content with life, with where I am living, what I am doing, and who I am as a person. I am not content with a few of those things currently; and honestly I hope I reach that stage of contentment long before ten years. I am not saying I am unhappy with life because that is not the case. There are just a few things I could be more content with than I currently am, and I would hope that in a ten year period I could obtain that contentment and allow myself to be fully happy the way I know I can and should be.